LET ME SHOW YOU.

Lets start this post with no formal greetings today, we all know that you're on this blog for the first time, well a couple o days back I posted about my insecurities and bull-crap, and it seems it got better views than I thought of, might be I'm hallucinating things but posting about my insecurities have got me more views rather than posting something useful, well I'm gambling on this one here and not posting about what my life is like and other crap like that. I just wanted to be on my blog for a while I guess, I'm off on a break from college and have about an hour for the exams,

PEN WORK ON MY HAND 

I don't know what exactly I'm writing about though, but I was feeling tired of sitting quiet, what do you do when you just have to sit quiet and mind your own business, for a little amount of time it seems fine but after a while it gets frustrating, you just need to put something out of your mouth even though it is just gibberish that comes out of mouth, well to make my quiet times to be more bearable I spend my time reading manga or on just on internet searching random things or even listen to songs(even though I have been through my playlist a thousand times), but yeah it gets frustrating from time to time, but if you think about it, it's not that bad, to have your own time, because I'm one such person that will have a chat with myself when I have to keep quiet. I don't admit it, but I have a really screwed up personality, I cannot handle crowds well, I don't like people staring at me, or even looking at me when it comes to that, but I don't like complete isolation either I tend to get worked up when I'm left alone. I also cannot stay without a single work to do, I cannot sit idle, i tend to get worked up and start to fidget with things that lie around me (and somehow every single one of them ends broken or damaged). I have found my ways to settle my down with it. If you have a condition like mine you should do what you are more comfortable with for a short time and later switch it with what you are less comfortable with, why change ? well lets admit it if you get too much of something you get bored of it, sooner or later, for like me I first stay alone for hours and then i switch over by going for a walk or sitting around in a place where I can see other human beings or play with my pets when I was back home. For if you have a complexity like me of fidgeting with things or planing to be the ruler of the world or ending it, I suggest you there is not much I can help with this, but i tend to read manga when i feel the need of fidgeting or find a pen and start with body arts, I tend to draw some flame like tattoos on the back side of my hand, boredom even gives rise to creativity, who could have ever thought of that, I wonder if a philosopher has already quoted that. If you are feeling down don't talk about it, to anyone, unless they notice it themselves, and again don't make it too obvious for others to read through, it's our problem we should rot in our misery, But I won't let you off without an advice, you just need to sit still clear your head and think of empty spaces in our head and just hit that space and think of a blank idea, for me I have this easy, I can think of absolutely nothing and stay like that for hour, I space out in my own world, Well if you want you can think of clouds and then slowly think of them disappearing. after the clouds have disappeared you might either feel light headed or feel like all tensions gone away. This is the problem of mine, I can start a blog but my endings they get messed up, there's so much of thinking going on in my head, I forget the end I thought for at the start of he blog, unlike my other "professional' blogging friend (only one of my friend Aditi)  I don't think I will write a blog today or have any previous plans on how it will go, I just sit in front of my laptop or PC and start pressing random buttons and before I know I'm writing a blog.

A lot of you might think most of my blog tittles don't match the blog content I'm writing, I just tend to put up something catchy and lure you into reading my post. the blog didn't start formally but I will give it a formal end.

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