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A long time since my last update ain't it ? I have been stuck up with paper works for my college from last 2 weeks, and what was I busy with earlier you ask ? It was actually nothing. I was just chasing after something which I always knew would never be mine, However it wasn't all a loss you know, I actually got pretty close to it until I was pushed away by my goal itself. So I might consider a win win situation. I got some wisdom outta it and felt closest to my goal even though I never got it. Anyways I will get started on my topic now.
I have been an enigma to myself almost all my life. Even in my blogging history I have mentioned many many times that I want to change myself. I actually tried doing it, well the results weren't quite fruitful. I ended up losing myself, I questioned my own existence, I actually became a blank page again which I was sent like when I was born. Solitude always suited me. I never even got mixed with my family even though they are one of those who are closest to me. I never talk much to people except that one person, ya the same person who was my goal. I let down all my guards and she actually knows the most about me more than my family or any other friends. I was a complete different person with her, I was "ME". I found myself in a conquest to win her over however, I lost the conquest but, I found myself, the ME that suited me the best. I didn't need to change the me I'm. The rejection surely hit me hard and made me go down on my knees, and I won't say that I will move on that easily but, I found myself that has made me a bit confident it will surely take a shorter duration this time. I might even shower the girl whom I love next with all my love she deserves. I find it rather funny to say that I'm all alone again after these 3 months. I guess, I should have known better because even when I fell for her one and half year ago I knew we weren't meant to be together and today that I have understood it all I wish is her happiness and good life after all she will always be my best friend because I know there is something awesome waiting for me around the corner or at least I can hope for it, till then I will just wear this mask of mine that I'm left with(i.e smile).Talking about awesome, my college are gonna start on September 12th the gets me all psyched up.
Well all I want to say at last is there is no need to change yourself no, need at all you will be at peace of mind if you just accept yourself rather then get on a conquest to be something else. I learned it the hard way and I bet even you will cause you won't understand if you are on a fight with yourself, at the end you will just be smacked in face with reality and you will end up with whom you are the real "YOU".
A long time since my last update ain't it ? I have been stuck up with paper works for my college from last 2 weeks, and what was I busy with earlier you ask ? It was actually nothing. I was just chasing after something which I always knew would never be mine, However it wasn't all a loss you know, I actually got pretty close to it until I was pushed away by my goal itself. So I might consider a win win situation. I got some wisdom outta it and felt closest to my goal even though I never got it. Anyways I will get started on my topic now.
I have been an enigma to myself almost all my life. Even in my blogging history I have mentioned many many times that I want to change myself. I actually tried doing it, well the results weren't quite fruitful. I ended up losing myself, I questioned my own existence, I actually became a blank page again which I was sent like when I was born. Solitude always suited me. I never even got mixed with my family even though they are one of those who are closest to me. I never talk much to people except that one person, ya the same person who was my goal. I let down all my guards and she actually knows the most about me more than my family or any other friends. I was a complete different person with her, I was "ME". I found myself in a conquest to win her over however, I lost the conquest but, I found myself, the ME that suited me the best. I didn't need to change the me I'm. The rejection surely hit me hard and made me go down on my knees, and I won't say that I will move on that easily but, I found myself that has made me a bit confident it will surely take a shorter duration this time. I might even shower the girl whom I love next with all my love she deserves. I find it rather funny to say that I'm all alone again after these 3 months. I guess, I should have known better because even when I fell for her one and half year ago I knew we weren't meant to be together and today that I have understood it all I wish is her happiness and good life after all she will always be my best friend because I know there is something awesome waiting for me around the corner or at least I can hope for it, till then I will just wear this mask of mine that I'm left with(i.e smile).Talking about awesome, my college are gonna start on September 12th the gets me all psyched up.Well all I want to say at last is there is no need to change yourself no, need at all you will be at peace of mind if you just accept yourself rather then get on a conquest to be something else. I learned it the hard way and I bet even you will cause you won't understand if you are on a fight with yourself, at the end you will just be smacked in face with reality and you will end up with whom you are the real "YOU".
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