YET AGAIN !!!!

Hey guys!

Well there are some good news and some bad ones(seems bad news never leave my life).I got my admission in marine engineering and I am damn excited and looking forward to start with course on September 8th. I would be in an hostel for a year and abroad for second year of college. Seems pretty amazing opportunity. So here are good news.

My reaction on my stupidity.

I have been feeling gloomy for past 2 weeks. I have to leave my parents for 2 years which is the longest I will be away from them. Even they seem to be excited and sad at same time. Does it feel this way always ? when you get something good. To mess up the situation pretty more for me I proposed a best friend of mine whom  I have a crush on from past 1.5 years. Knowing I don't stand a chance with her as she already has a boyfriend. I confessed about my feels in a moment of anger because of a twat because of whom she and I were fighting. I was holding on to the feels pretty well before it was out of bag. Then on a crazy night I proposed her (kill me). I don't know why even in college and even now,If I could open up a vein and bleed her smile out I would do that. Well, the good thing is that she did NOT stop talking. Seeing her messed up in feelings I decided one of the toughest decisions I ever took.I decided not to disturb her any more and forwarded my hand of friendship and asked her to me be my best friend. I realize it is hard and just wanna tell this thing to her. Aand I messed it again and said everything to her AGAIN!. Well, I can't stay away from her. I can't withstand the idea of her going away even though she was never mine.

If you are reading this post and are a parent of a child please make him/her read this post and tell them never ever be this guy.

Well I guess this is life we have to let our favorite things slip by,just to see it happy,even though it hurts you have to.